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发表于 2014-10-7 07:43:24
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Oct 7th, 2014
I didn't see any mm nor mpa for the past 2 months, which is the truth. was it hard, i would be lying if i said it wasn't. it's still very difficult to suppress the temptation. how we made it was making love every day, when sweetie is physically unavailable, she still makes sure i don't carry any bullet in my pistol. we had lunch together every day, and i picked her up after work every day. there is absolutely no room, no time for me to sneak out.. because she did move in with me after we got back home (Toronto).
why did i decide to sign in to 747 now, because now i am out of town, i am back to asia again, so i thought i would provide some updates without causing a relapse... lots of things happened this month. first thing first,
why am i in asia again, i got here a few days ago, someone important passed away, had to attend the funeral, not a close family member, but just had to be here. sweetie isn't here with me, not sure today is the best day to break the news to all the brothers and friends on 747...but sweetie is going to be a mommy!! it's too early to tell whether is a baby boy or baby girl yet. either way, i will love him or her equally. Can u believe little happy is on the way, couldn't fall asleep every time i think about this especially sweetie isn't by my side. if its a baby girl, i want her to look like sweetie, as adorable as she is, if its a baby boy, of course i want him to look just like me, my height, black hair, i don't have a name yet, i do have a huge list, especially if its a baby girl.. it's kind of weird at the funeral, because i was not sad at all, all i could think about was sweetie and little happy. i talk to her whenever i can.. she thought i won't be back for another 2 weeks, but i am gonna surprise her, funeral is done, just need to help tiger mom a bit with her business then i am good to go,
if i can describe life without hunting in one long sentence,
it's dry, it's plain, its like eating same kind of dish every day, but gradually i learn to appreciate this dish, i learn to become accustomed to it, i learn to love it, i learn to find it delicious, i learn to know this is what i have to eat, and i love eating it, i learn to find the little tiny things, subtle flavours come with it.. and its worth it..i would do everything and anything for my sweetie including killing my inner wolf
the strange part is i don't check out girls in yoga pants anymore, i still look, but i don't go out of my way to check them out, and i just don't have that kind of desire to see random yoga bums anymore.. i guess i am different now, when i read all the reviews here, i feel like i don't belong to here, i feel like those r so far away from me, those r in the past... i got nothing to do with it, don't get me wrong i still love yoga bum, but i only love sweetie's yoga bum, i would still stare at her rear for a long time when she is in lulu or tna pants.. maybe this is love, u become blind, u lose the judgement, u only see that person, nothing else matters, everything else disappear in my peripheral eyesights...perhaps, i am sick of hunting, after 10 years of hunting, it's possible i become sick of it too, countless mms and mpas.. physcial love alone is no longer able to satisfy my craving..
another thing, we gonna have a small wedding on new year eve before sweetie's tummy gets too big, we hired a professional wedding planner, so we just got to show up, it wont be more than 80 people. sweetie being pregnant this early wasn't part of the plan, but i couldn't say i was surprised at all for obvious reason.. ok i gtg.. take care guys, and happy hunting but stay safe
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