my diary - just for the record......

Lifter

happypooning 发表于 2014-7-8 21:17
lol.. no man, i don't use deodorant, but i wear cologne, actually i have two bottles i use exclusi ...

Can't keep EVERYONE happy that's for sure!

happypooning

July 12nd, 2014 early evening  

went to play basketball with 2 of my friends after babysitting, yes sweetie likes to play the "mommy" role... she always "volunteers" to babysit for her friends, so she is a "mommy" minus the cooking, that's why i was there as usual, because i am the cook ,
anyway....pool is closed, probably for maintenance or something, there was like 8 kids, 18, or 19 years old, high school graduates or freshmen in college..since there was only 3 of us, so we played 3 on 3, i didn't want to play with them at first because they acted gangsters tough, and one of our players is missing, he is away, he is actually the best by far among 4 of us, but another younger friend of mine wanted to play with them, so i obliged..

i don't know what have they been feeding kids nowadays, 3 kids r my height, 2 r much taller, the tallest is at least 6"5, if not taller

so we started playing after some shooting loosening up, within 15 mins one of the kids kept picking on my friend who is older, he is in his late 30s.. he couldn't keep up with the pace.. so that kid said whats up old man, arthritis, my grandpa knows some good pills for it. of course we all got fired up, and then he apologized told us to chill, he was kidding.. i was very mad, but we were totally outnumbered, and we were losing by 6 points.. and out of no where that 6"5 kid blocked my shot, he was faster than me, caught me off guard, whatever, its all good, part of the game, i thought i will just get him back, but this kid started trash talking, i really wanted to fuck up his face, i am not a violent guy at all, but this fucking kid...his face, his attiude, his tone.....just can not tolerate it....but i looked around, 8 versus 3.. and i don't have my cell phone with me.. so i sucked it up, and tried to focus and win the game.. but my older friend couldn't continue, so we had to call it off.. the score was like 28 to 22 for them. so that 6"5 kid said "losers" he didn't say it to our faces, but i heard it when we were about to leave, i was like say that again. he just looked at me for 3 seconds and say whatever, i was like u n me one on one now, 11 points, position all the way, he said he is late for some bull shit so i told him i want a rematch next week, same time, same place, i will replace the older friend with another friend who was MVP player in college, he said whatever, we will be here, i hate that fucking kid. that fucking attitude.

went back home pissed, sweetie was like, how was the game, i didn't reply, so she said u should have gone jogging with me. i ignored her and went straight to shower, i was pissed, cranky as hell.. after shower, she was outside the door waiting, she asked about the game again, i said my shot got blocked by a kid, and he trashtalked for the rest of the game, fucking annoying..sweetie said why do u swear so much lately, u never swore before, whats up with all the cursing...i dont like it, so stop ok?!. i didnt reply but walked away she grabbed my arm, removed my towel, which was on my waist, i said i am not in the mood, she said thats why we r doing it, i was like fine u ask for it, so we did, i guess this is called angry sex, totally not my style, i cummed in less than 2 mins, it was vigorous sex, i pounded really hard, got up and went for another shower, came out, sweetie said feel better? i said yeah, she gave me a kiss and told me to eat the cheese cake she saved for me and finish the milk. when i was eating the cheese cake, i am really thankful to have sweetie, she always knows how to calm me down, make me feel better under any circumstance.... i told myself, i will quit hunting one day for her, for my future kids.. starting from this vacation, no hunting no massage, no checking out girls.. be her good man, i know i am not a good bf, but she is the best gf i have ever had. i am sorry that i do what i do, but i know i love her, i am just afraid to say it and afraid to admit it.....i wanna take this opportuinty to dedicate this song to myself and sweetie, i love the lyrics
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ulB9tF-3cTw

and.....



i will get my dignity back next week.
fucking kid called me a loser, i will make you loser's bitch

cewek

happypooning 发表于 2014-7-13 10:41
July 12nd, 2014 early evening  

went to play basketball with 2 of my friends after babysitting, yes ...

You are a hell of a lucky guy, hope you will treasure her; with her you will be showered with little little sparkling things that make life so delightful.

happypooning

July 14th, 2014,  around 9 am

a dialogue between me and 7samurai on 747 , i thought i should record it here, so 10 years from today, it would be entertaining to read again....things that make sweetie happy

7darling

My thoughts comes from the modern western thinking of "equality" amongst "couples".    You get to play. And she doesn't and has to swallow her pride and dignity while she knows you see mm.  

Double standards.

I guess earning 5x sweetie's-salary is the justification?   It's about  the all might earning power.

HappyPooning

7darling, first of all, i do not earn 5x more than sweetie's salary, not even 3x

secondly, her definition of "play" and "fun" is very different than u n me, having sex with strangers isn't considered fun to her, but problematic let alone possible STDs

thirdly, she doesn't even swallow my cum, minimum BBBJ, why would she swallow her "pride" and "dignity" u clearly don't know her, have u been reading my diary?? she has bigger ego than u n me combined

she "plays" and has her "fun" when

1. she writes and draws stuff on my face during my weekend naps

2. put ice cubes from my neck down my shirt when i am working on something at home

3. hide in the bathtub, behind the curtain, and scare me when i take a leak, so i piss everywhere

4. hide underneath the bed and grab my leg to scare me, so i scream like a girl

5. put very girly stickers (pink) all over my briefcases and lunch bag

6. turn off the bathroom light while i am taking a shower, i am afraid of darkness....

7. once she played with my phone, changed every single person's name to iluvsweetie1, iluvsweetie2, iluvsweetie3...so on and so forth. took me days to get most of the contacts back

8.  she once changed my ringtone to Disney's Frozen let it go .... u know how embarrassed i was, when it went off at work, i was at my boss's office, she looked at me like i got problems.. like pedophile or homo... i said must be my girl, she was like "yeah...right"

9. sometimes calls me princess XXXX (my last name) if i am late for dinner and she gets there earlier, and waitresses will laugh and giggle, because sometimes it takes longer for me to get ready, except going jogging, exercising..etc

Lifter

happypooning 发表于 2014-7-14 20:42
July 14th, 2014,  around 9 am

a dialogue between me and 7samurai on 747 , i thought i should record ...

These "pranks" is such a white/western thing. Sounds fun and kinda cute although I don't know how well I would handle it. You got to find a way to get her back.

Should have told those punk kids that they got to go home cuz their mom is gonna go amber alert on their ass.

Those kids probably play like 6 days a week. Can't beat them unless you can out train them old man! You probably can't beat yourself that is 10 years younger . Heck, Can't even beat myself at video gaming 10 years ago.

happypooning

July 31st, 2014

Time: 7pm ish
Location: sweetie's place, dialogue over dinner table

Sweetie has been losing weight like crazy. i was not going to say anything until today she had a small salad for dinner again, she has been on hardcore diet and running everyday, her yoga bum is diminishing as i type here. God knows how many pounds she has lost so far since like 2 months ago since we decided to go visit tiger mom and family in asia

ME- u have to start eating real food, vegetable is for horses and cow, u need meat
Sweetie- i don't wanna look fat in asia
ME- u r so slim now, so perfect..what..u want to be like anorexia thin like many girls in asia
Sweetie- i don't want ur mom to judge me
ME- she is going to judge u regardless, that's what she does, judging people, she does that for a living
Sweetie- i just wanna fit in
ME- fit in where, so next thing u gonna dye ur hair black and wear brown contact lenses.
Sweetie- i know u like slim asian girls, i see u checking them out
ME- u r kidding me right, u have known me over a year, and we have been together like 5 months already, u still don't know what attracts me???
Sweetie- u r asian, u like asian girls
ME- r u drunk? is it the ice wine?? i don't like asian girls
Sweetie- u lie, that's against ur nature
ME- so u r telling me, if i am chinese i have to like chinese food, and its against my nature to eat korean or italian food??? and why do u need to fit in, it's a trip like 2 weeks for u, u belong here, just be yourself
Sweetie- easy for u to say, u r slim ... blah blah blah

i just stopped talking, and turned on the tv, lately she is like a different person, so she doesn't know the opposites attract. this is ignorant, so if i am tall, i have to play basketball, so if i am fat, i must eat junk food every 5 mins, so if i am black, i must rap like no tomorrow.. i think its the ice wine, she had 3 glasses.. this is why i don't like booze, where did all that nonsense come from..
i know i have not been paying enough attention to her, work, friends, church, sports, escorts, and sex747
i really hopes its the ice wine, i feel insecure when i am unable to read her mind, why did she say stuff like that, what point was she trying to make, was she trying to make, was she trying to hint at something else

dashfortrash

Lifter 发表于 2014-7-14 23:08
These "pranks" is such a white/western thing. Sounds fun and kinda cute although I don't know how  ...

so true, I used to play SSF4 online and these kids would kick my ass/trash talk me. And I couldn't even imagine myself beating them, cause I can't dedicate 8 hours a day to a video game anymore, nor do I have the reflexes to react to things on screen as fast.

dashfortrash

finally finished the story. HP, every post you wrote made me feel more involved, its almost like witnessing it as you go through each scene. I'm sure there's so much more you haven't wrote, but this is a great story, albeit you are risking the whole play with fire/wasting each other's time.

I had something similar many years ago, I knew I wouldn't marry her, my mom wouldn't accept her, but we still went out, we still dated, she asked me what does it feel like to embrace her (cause I hug very tight), I told her it felt like I was holding the entire world, and it was like I needed nothing else, I was complete. we had the same taste in food, movies, convos went on for days, but eventually. she knew we wouldnt get married, so just moved away all of a sudden due to "family emergency", then shortly broke up with me and married someone else she met after 1 month.

Lifter

dashfortrash 发表于 2014-8-1 09:37
finally finished the story. HP, every post you wrote made me feel more involved, its almost like wit ...

After 1 month?! That's crazy! How long did you guys go out for?

dashfortrash

Lifter 发表于 2014-8-1 18:09
After 1 month?! That's crazy! How long did you guys go out for?

7 months or so