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I was debating whether i should post it on Craigslist under missed connection or here. I finally decided to post it here, hopefully you will read it soon. i know u know about this review board. just a matter of time u will come across this message. sex747 is my spiritual home, this is my getaway, this is where i can be myself without people judging me being me. this is the realest me. because of u, i don't write BP reviews, i don't want ppl to find out about u, i am very selfish, but it also demonstrates how much u mean to me, how offensive when u said, maybe u were just a whore to me, please don't ever use that word in front of me, if you were a whore to me, what am i to, a pig, a douchbag, human waste??
You asked have i ever fell for you for real. do i like u. i didn't know what to say at that point. u put me on the spot, anything i say, will jeapodize our current realtionship or arrangement. u r part of my life now even though i tried to suppress it, i tried to deny it. i tried to separate u from my real life. but the truth is u r immersed in it compleltey in more than one way more than one dimension..i can not explain properly. i kept silent, because i don't have the guts to escalate it to the next level. i am happy where we are now if you are.
u know u shattered my world when i found out i am on ur speed dial 2. remember that day, we threw the clothes on the ground and my cell phone flew underneath the bed, and u had to call my number to locate it, if i am right, speed dial 1 is voicemail...don't you have other ppl more important, why do u allow urself to get hurt like this, u know i have a girlfriend, u know i use escort, u know i go to massage, u know i am a cheater, the fact that i still use escort when i have a girlfriend. i am bad news. there are tons of decent nice asian guys out there, i am just not one of them, i want to be one, but u got to face the reality here. i use escort, i cheat. u deserve someone better, u deserve someone who is able to give u 100% love and attention, u derserve someone who doesn't cheat, u deserve someone who doesn't use escort. this is just an infatuation. nothing more. please believe me, i will still see u if u want me to, but we got to keep it professional. we can not let two worlds collide, u won't be the only victim, u will destroy me too. and quite frankly, u r not the first sp i got romantically involved, i can assure u, u won't be the last...i thought u started ur new real job already, why r u still in this industry, is it because of me, i sincerely believe it's just my wishful thinking.
u asked me if any of this is real, if i like u a bit
here is my answer
I like you when you say, how r u, and then i said fine. and u ask again with seriously, how are you
I like you when you stand on ur tippy toes to kiss me
I like you when you fix my tie for me
I like you when you refuse to use ur own glass, and insist on sharing one glass of water with me
I like you when you pick up tiny hair from my shirt
I like you when you ask me to stay for just10 more mins
I like you when you ask me if i ever thought about u outside this room
I like you when you intentially drink my coffee
I like you when you give me a hard time when i ask you to go down on me
I like you when you laugh for no apparent reason
I like you when you giggle over something not even funny, something so trivial
I like you when you dry my body with towel and complain i always miss certain spots
I like you when you make a face to me, although u don't look attractive at all when u do that
I like you when you hide the clock and my watch
I like you when you have no clue how adorable you are
I like you when you tell me to run away with you even though you say it half-joking
I like you when you secrely hide my scarf or belongings so i would come back to get it
so is it enough to show u i am in like with u, the list can go on if u want me to
we are both adults, we are not in school anymore. there is a difference between fantasy and reality.
just because u want something, doesn't mean u can always have it
just because u try ur best ur work ur @ss off, doesn't mean u will succeed for sure
did u believe in santa claus when u were a little girl, i bet u believed in him with every cell in ur body, but for sure u know he doesn't exist by now. in spite of the facts that u did see presents underneath the christmas tree, parents promised u he existed, and he ate the cookies u prepared, but at the end of the day he is just a fantasy. essentially we are like that too. we strongly believe in each other now, we trick each other to believe this is real, we send out signals and cues to play with our hearts... but trust me on this ...few years from now, i am just another santa claus guy
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