my diary - just for the record......

happypooning

duncan_fang 发表于 2014-7-5 06:50
Just curious whether or not that...deep down...Sweetie knows you are actively hunting still...afte ...

of course she does, she is a girl, girls know everything about stuff like this, they r hypersensitive, and super paranoid. but we don't talk about this, if i didn't cheat on my ex, i would not have met her, and we would not be together today. i actually said that to her before, its hurtful and disrespectful, but i wanted to make it clear, there is no fairy tale with me,

i can monitor her laptop remotely, she knows about red, blue board and 747, but she never visited review boards or porn after she became a civilian.. she could easily catch me if she wants to, but why would she do that, we had an agreement, she just doesn't want me to see a girl more than once that's all, for obvious reason,

eventually i will have to quit, or i will lose her, we r going on a vacation soon, to reassess our relationship and re-evaluate my life, she did kind of hinted that i have to stop seeing other girls on her birthday wishes after a few glasses of wine.. i told her straight up, give up everything, move away with me, to the west, then just u and me, so if one day, i disappear, u guys know why.

9413

I didn't follow the whole story but is she Asian or white? and did she quit because of you?

happypooning

9413 发表于 2014-7-6 23:27
I didn't follow the whole story but is she Asian or white? and did she quit because of you?

that's a good question, i am not 100% sure, maybe she quit for me, or just a coincidence, but i'd like to believe i have something to do with it more or less..

sweetie finished her education earlier this year, found a civilian job right away, so it all makes sense to put this all behind her. the day she told me she closed this chapter, she said "i might not be the one for u, but i think u r the one for me", as simple as that, we started dating. i think i wrote that in my diary, or did i?

but i am not as loyal as her, that's my sin, my burden

9413

happypooning 发表于 2014-7-7 12:39
that's a good question, i am not 100% sure, maybe she quit for me, or just a coincidence, but i'd  ...

Well even if she didn't quit that for you she still be a keeper cuz u hardly find a girl who can really quit the business. Good luck and I'll still be following your story

Lifter

holy shit this is some fucking story!

it is amazing that you two have an "agreement" on a thing that would break up almost any relationship. By being brutally honest with that dark secret what can you guys NOT get over?

happypooning

Lifter 发表于 2014-7-7 20:35
holy shit this is some fucking story!

it is amazing that you two have an "agreement" on a thing tha ...

my mom, u can make fun of me all u want

but that's the only person i can not disobey in the entire universe

even my boss at work is replaceable, i will just need to find another job, but how can one replace his or her own mother.. sweetie understands that, so we r gonna do it together, she is learning chinese too. part of me is telling me i am making a huge mistake, wasting my time n her as well, its not like i can marry her.. but part of me wanna risk it, come on just take a chance on love. its 2014, not 1014, interracial dating is very very normal

that's why i am taking sweetie to meet her this summer, see if she can change my mom's mind and help me out a little, so we can be together a little bit longer

Lifter

happypooning 发表于 2014-7-7 21:18
my mom, u can make fun of me all u want

but that's the only person i can not disobey in the enti ...

I'm Chinese and I can understand. When I was young my mom told me straight up NO BROWN or BLACK CHICKS. Honestly, I don't mind myself.

Well, take it one step at a time. But make your stance if you really like this girl. Maybe it is part of Asian to be so calculated. But life is about taking chances right? As you said before, you know you will look back and regret 100% if you don't try.

Never give up on each other man. You met her parents yet?

happypooning

Lifter 发表于 2014-7-7 21:40
I'm Chinese and I can understand. When I was young my mom told me straight up NO BROWN or BLACK CH ...

consider urself lucky already, my mom told me straight up CHINESE ONLY, but i do have a contingency plan, she is desperate for grand-kids, so i let her wait longer, hopefully one day, mixed babies r fine to her as long as it's mine. so far, she is still pretty firm on me marrying a chinese girl who speaks mandarin. my dad is very easy going, he likes all my exes as long as they r "good" christian girls

i met her parents already, although it was not a formal sit-down dinner. i was at sweetie's place for dinner, her parents needed to pick up camera from her, i said i would go out for 10 mins to avoid seeing them, but her mom insisted on meeting me, so i was forced to stay by sweetie, she said my mom is very nice, don't bite so quit being a girl. so i stayed

her dad wasn't too friendly to me, he said " so u live here now?" with condescending tone.. but i said no sir, i am just here for the dinner, and do her dishes later. her mom on the other hand is very friendly, too friendly indeed, a bit tipsy, she touched my chest, my arm, my face, said i am very smooth skin, and she likes tall guy with dark hair...etc she made me blush. sweetie's dad isnt tall, probably only 5"7 or 5"8

anyway she kept "flirting" with me, i just smiled, then sweetie said " maybe i will just dump him, so u can ask him out" her mom said something like wouldnt that be nice,

i thought i typed this incident in my diary, but no where to be found, i probably did in my poll boatsinking thread, or true value of a meal thread.. i know sweetie's dad likes grey goose vodka, i plan to buy him a dozen with different flavours on his birthday so he will like me a bit more

Lifter

happypooning 发表于 2014-7-8 12:13
consider urself lucky already, my mom told me straight up CHINESE ONLY, but i do have a contingenc ...

The power of grand kids can help a lot! A friend of mine have some pretty strict parents and they didn't like his gf or wife to be. Popped a grand kid and now everything is peachy.

Well, Daddy's little girl right? So he will look at you with "I'm watching you...always" attitude.

Did you use AXE spray? Reminded of this commercial

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mambpzvJyYM

happypooning

Lifter 发表于 2014-7-8 19:46
The power of grand kids can help a lot! A friend of mine have some pretty strict parents and they  ...

lol.. no man, i don't use deodorant, but i wear cologne, actually i have two bottles i use exclusively for hunting

she wasn't like that in the video, like i said she was a bit tipsy, they had dinner probably had a glass of wine or two, sweetie isn't that close to her dad, thats another topic for another day, i got an impression he just didn't like me that much, probably doesn't like asians, especially i am sleeping with her daughter.. whatever, i will deal with him, everyone wants something, and everyone has a price,

for him, he likes grey goose,